To write or not to write? *mystified* haha

Written by AlyssaJade on November 16, 2009

Hey guys!

So basically, I've got so much uni work to do but I wanted to churn out a quick blog as I have slightly abandoned Dipdive lately *hugs dipdive* and I missed it! haha

anyway..basically I've had one thing on my mind lately: my future.

It's been a whirlwind of assignments and grades and I feel like I've been buried under work and I feel totally overwhelmed. I know it's normal to feel inundated, but it's just kinda bought me to the question: what DO i want?

I'm not happy in my degree at the moment (I'm doing a creative writing course), because whilst it will help me in the long run and i LOVE creative writing, it's not actually what I want to do.. at the start I thought it would be, but this whole year I've felt a sense of dissatisfaction.. so I was thinking to myself I'd change to journalism because my whole life, i've always wanted to work in magazines or newspapers. I can remember being a kid and telling everyone in like, year 3 that I was going to be the editor of Dolly magazine one day. And I do, don't get me wrong... But then again, am I heading that way just because? Because that's my only real other option? Because if I don't write.. what do I have?

Now I'm thinking I just want to do something kinda crazy and throw it all to the wind and move to London for a year in 2010...get a job, work, maybe study there a bit. Just doing something completely different, on my own, getting out of my comfort zone. I know I'd get homesick and miss my family, but I just want to experience something else. I feel like everything here is like..so safe. I'm not challenged at all, and I really don't see myself growing in this degree I am now. I feel like if I continue with this for three years, all i'll end up with is a degree I don't really want paired with like 30 thousand dollars worth of HECS debt. lol

I just don't know..I sound kinda ungrateful. I know I'm lucky, it's just.. I've got so many questions! hopefully I'll figure them out. Got any advice for me, my darling BM family?

oh and by the way..BM party in July next year! So excited :) xoxo