My Junk Drawer...nothin to see here :D (awkward smile)

Written by Angelcdp on August 15, 2009

I can't figure out, on here, how to find where you've posted things to peoples blogs. Sometimes I like to reread what I wrote to see if I still agree with myself ...lol. You know how sometimes you think you know exactly what you are talking about, and then something happens in life to make you do a 360, or even a 127 or so.  So.. as egotistical as it looks, I am going to post some of those thoughts of mine, and links to what it's about, in here so I can keep read back if I feel like it.

August 15th 2009
I joined just to reply to you here.  Watching this, and watching Paris cry were the two things that brought the tears out of me since the day. I still haven't watched more than a snippet of the memorial. I think when it finally really does hit me that he is gone, it will hit hard. So far, I can't seem to cry. The first day, yes, tears, prayers, I believed with every part of me that he'd make it through. When they started reporting he'd passed I was angry that they'd post these horrid lies about him. That they'd take it THIS far.

I didn't know him like you do. My heart goes out to you. You seem like a wonderful sweet person. I can see why he enjoyed spending time with you. How can he really be gone though? I just can't begin to believe it. Even now I find myself thinking of the ways that it could have been staged and maybe now he is able to live in freedom, outside the fishbowl.

...and with the mourning of Michael Jackson, we also mourn the passing of the music industry as we know it. What now? Into the great unknown it seems. But there will always be music despite the death of the industry... which suddenly makes me smile. Maybe here is where true freedom lies.
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Gees Will.i.am, you are making me cry all over again.  First with MJ, and now seeing what a beautiful person you are....and you know this is going to reach so much further than the four you are sending to college, and already has. Inspiration can reach out infinately and doesn't take money..it's priceless. I have this dream that I know I have to work towards. Every time I have quiet time to think and pray, the idea comes up, so I know I have to do it. Every story like this shows me how important it is not to forget about that dream. It will fill a need in a different way. I just have to work out the details and make sure it really is a good idea and could really work... and financing, but if it's a good enough idea, that shouldn't be a problem.

Wow it is just so nice to have someone catch your attention and find out such wonderful things about them. Your mom really did raise you right. I hope my kids will feel the same way about me when they are grown up. It really is hard. I have four kids. Was married but not now. I'm doing it on my own but I wish I wasn't. I really feel my kids are missing out by not having a father figure. I worry they aren't getting discipline like they probably should.. I worry that they won't get opportunities that they should. I guess sometimes it just takes time and determination. We know there are so many others out there who are in worse positions than we are.

Sorry.. I got opening up and just shared way too much on a public website..lol. Aw well... emotions can do that to a person.

I don't even know what to write anymore, I am so impressed. I LOVE being pleasantly surprised by a person.

BTW to everyone out there, we can ALL make a difference no matter what our circumstances. Even if we have to start with our own families. As long as we continue to reach out towards others to make a possitive difference, even with a smile, this world will be better because of it.
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August 16th 2009

I semi agree with you, however there are times when jealousy is a red flag for the relationship. Sometimes we can't put a finger on what is wrong, we just know something is up. So when that happens enough times, and we find ourselves wanting to turn into detective mode, it could be because there's reason to. Because there is something to find.

In either case though, when detective mode strikes, something is wrong. Whether that be because of your own insecurities, or because your significant other is giving you reason to doubt them and feel insecure. Sometimes there is good reason for those feelings to pop up and we shouldn't feel bad about feeling them. We have to learn to trust ourselves and our instincts more often. With a good relationship, secure feelings, and communication, as well as time, you can put the detective hat and magnifying glass away.

I don't think we give ourselves nearly enough time to get to know one another these days in relationships. It takes time to build trust and know that your significant other deserves that trust...or to learn that they don't.
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It's a bit of an oxymoron but, the more you reach out to others the less hurt you feel. By closing yourself off from people, it makes you very lonely. If you can accept the fact that even people who love you will sometimes let you down, and learn to forgive, then you can do alright. You still have to take care of yourself. If someone is abusive towards you, then you don't want to reach out to them.

I know I'm a stranger, and I don't know your situation, but I hope maybe what I've said can help, and I hope things start getting better for you...and for us all.

Take care,

Angel

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August 18th 2009

Short answer: Of course

Long answer:In my opinion:

I don't think love is always at first sight, if that's what you mean. In fact, that kind of love is probably pretty rare (and more than likely lust). True love takes time. You can feel strong love for someone you have just met. You can feel that attraction and spark where you just seem to click so perfectly, but it takes time to really know a person well. So ... you can fall quickly for someone, and they can fall quickly for you, but there's a chance they are wrong for you. I THINK you probably can know if it is right after getting to know each other well and going through things together.

Ya know.. now that I am actually writing this down, I realize how little I know. I'm 33 and a single mother of four kids. There was a time I thought their dad was the one for me...then I got to know him better. lol. Plus I was quite young when we started dating. I think sometimes we just want love so much that it feels more important that there is someone to love, no matter who it is, than the right one for you, and that's when you start to see someone as being your soulmate because it's what you want to see, and you ignore their faults because you are blind to the possibility of them not being your soulmate. (I've used the term love loosely here btw)

To answer your question, it is entirely possible (I believe) for someone to overlook someone wonderful right in front of them, because they are so focused on being infatuated with someone, or a particular idea of someone.

Whether you believe in the bible or not, there is an excellent passage on love that I always turn to when I am questioning if something is real love or not...something I should have read often in the past, but was too caught up in something wrong to have time to think.

1 Corinthians 13Love

¹If I speak in the tongues^[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,^[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I know this was really long... I hope it helped in some way.

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