Never give up on Loving Life!

Written by Estrella82 on November 19, 2011

For me, Beautiful Movements is this incredible place where I have met some of the most inspiring and though provoking people in my life.  I stumbled across it at a time when I look back and know I really needed it.  I may look back now and kick myself for thinking I was being silly or over dramatic but the fact is your feelings are your own and no-one can take them away from you or tell you what they should be.

I was very down in myself as every time something went wrong in my life I would try to look at another aspect in order to cheer me up, then no sooner said than done, that part would go wrong as well.  First I had a very painful heartbreak from a relationship, then I became unhappy at work, then my health took a turn for the worst, then my Dad got very ill, then work got even worse... it just seemed to be a never ending downward spiral and no matter how positive I tried to be, there comes a point when you do just break down.  I felt there was only so much I could try and make things better but end up feeling worse and just became miserable.

I will never know why BM came into my life right then but I can honestly say it & all the people in it changed my life.  You made me feel that I was good enough, in fact much better a person than I ever thought and made me believe things that had happened were not my fault so not to punish myself by allowing them to play over & over in my mind.  You didn’t let me give up, and made me believe that things would take a turns for the better if only I stick to my guns and continue trying to be a good person and achieve my goals.

POSITIVITY BREEDS POSITIVITY

First you taught me to accept myself and then learn to love who I am for all my quirks.  If I didn’t like me why should anyone else?  I learnt I needed to be comfortable in my own skin before even considering letting someone else in.  You then taught me that happiness is a journey not a destination, and that life is too short to spend it doing or being something that brings you down, so I left the job I was so unhappy with, with no new job to go to.  It was a huge leap of faith but in only 6 weeks I found a new job.  It wasn’t the job I really wanted, but where I wanted to go had not been recruiting for over 2 years due to the economic situation, but hey I had a good job with a good company, and it was fairly enjoyable – I couldn’t ask for much more than that.

Then out of the blue in February of this year, the company I had wanted to work for for so long actually approached me to see if I was interested in a job!!! Naturally I was, and to cut the story short, in April I started working there.  Now I work for arguably one of the biggest companies in the world, doing a job I enjoy and doing it with a team of people that I can genuinely say I like every single one!  Not only that, I seem to be doing pretty well having reached one of my targets and being 2% off my other, with 6 weeks left in the year, and I feel valued by my manager.

Not only had I achieved happiness in work, my new job introduced me to many new people, including my boyfriend.  He actually only lived 2 mins round the corner from me, with 2 other guys I had been friends with for years, but it was in getting this job and car sharing into work that I met him.  I wasn’t sure about a relationship with someone from work at first but the company is so big it’s not like we see each other all the time and he does a totally different job to me, but he has worked there for 10 years and I could not dig up one piece of dirt about him (always handy to be able to do the back-ground checks J).  He is amazing and I trust him with my life, something I feared I would never be able to do after the heartbreak suffered from my last boyfriend.

I am so happy right now, I truly feel Kimberly’s reminder to ‘Love Life’, it is too short to spend time dwelling on the negative.  So my real point of this blog is to say don’t ever give up.  Sometimes you feel so low that you just can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel and you feel you can’t take any more knock downs.  You do ask ‘why me?’ and feel resentment towards the people who have been part of making you feel this way, but this won’t do anything to them, it will only torture yourself and breed negative feelings inside which of course will emanate on the outside, and you will become encapsulated in a downward spiral. 

I also appreciate that there are many people who may be feeling the way I did a couple of years ago and I just wanted to share this to let you know things do change and they do improve.  Just because it doesn’t get better overnight don’t give up.  Be true to yourself, your morals, your beliefs, act with integrity and honesty, learn to accept, like and even love yourself, don’t lose sight of what’s important in life and where you want your path to lead, and no matter what just keep dreaming and believing!  I know life isn’t always smooth and I’m sure there will be times when I don’t feel as strong as I do when writing this but life really is a rollercoaster and we have to learn to take the rough with the smooth.  I guess part of me writing this blog is for myself, so I can regain that perspective and belief at times when I feel weak.

So this is a massive THANK YOU from me to my amazing BM family and just because I’m not on here every day and may not always have time to respond to every blog please don’t think I don’t read them and think about you all.  I have been honoured to meet many of you and the BM meet up back in September just confirmed to me how lucky I am to have you in my life.  I really don’t know or want to think where I would be without you guys, and I will be here for you as you have been for me.

All my Love

Always!!!

Xxxxxxxxxx

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