The start

Written by Kaitlyn on July 26, 2009

I sat here today in hope that something meaningful will finally find its way out of me. A little while ago i read some blogs on here that someone had wrote about finding your self, learning to love yourself and forgiveness, thats when i decided to make an account in order to post blogs to get things off my chest and help me deal with them.

So far i have not been able to bring myself to do it, although im sat in front of a screen hiding my identity to everyone who my stumble across my blogs i still fear the worse...a family member reading them.

If i can not bring myself to write the things down how do i even begin to deal and move on? Im starting to think im never going to be a strong person like the one that wrote the blogs i read, and also did so without hiding her identity from anyone.

If i never deal with the problem how do i begin to live again? There are so many questions i seek answers for so many emotions i cant identify going on inside, and i feel im slowly giving in again before ive even tried.

For around 11 years i have switched off the feelings and emotions surrounding some avents in my life and to try to switch them back on and fight through is seeming like and unrealistic goal for me right now but falling back into the pit is not an option, but learning to love myself let go and live again is, so i guess the journey begins.