Estrella82 i wish sometimes that there was a reason like she was afraid of him but unfortunatly that isnt the case hes the only person in this world that she seems to care about, i dont really want to say to much about who he is but he is deffinatly not someone she would ever fear, its hard to explain.

Thank you both for your positive comments :) they do make me realise there are people that care

Wow, this is tough, what Sandra said is right though, surely a mother should unquestionably give you love, support, understanding, you should be able to trust her. To find out she knew what happened to you and didn't do anythign to protect you must have been hard. Things are rarely black and white though I suppose, you never know, the ma night have been threatening her as well and she was scared to help you? Im not making excuses at all, just trying to look at possibilities, but the fact she actually said she didn't like you openly really is not right, even if she felt it, I don't believe a mother should ever say things like that to their child who instinctively looks up to them as a role model.  Only you can decide whether the relationship can or will be re-built though, or even whether you want to.  Keep smiling, love always xxx

A mother is supposed to give you love, understanding, comfort and warmth before she gives you material things like clothing, food and toys or whatever. And your mother apparently didn't act like a mother should. She crossed the line way too far. So, why should you act like a daughter if she has never been acting like a mother? And, to be perfectly honest, I don't know if she would want you to be lik a real daughter, cause if she really wanted it she would have treated you at least like a human being. She's never been a mother figure for you - so, I think you should just let it be the way it is, cause in my eyes it doesn't seem to be changeable. Some people just aren't meant to be mothers but though some do become mothers. Take care of yourself, my dear! :) xoxo