Conquered

Written by MEMErryl on June 12, 2009

Never thought one of my simplest dreams would come true. Just one night lasted a lifetime. Well, at least I know it will. So pure, so real. It was wild, hot, sexy, steamy, but I never saw it that way. For me, it's an amazing display of art. A great show of music and movement on stage. Now I know I have a hangover, forever.

It was year 2006 when they first set foot on the Philippine stage. Back then, I thought it was corny. Just another girl group. Their music is hip, perfect for people my age. I was in High School then, so I never really had any idea what the hell it's all about. I never learned their names, their history, their songs, their relationships. Why would I care? They were unreachable anyway. Their foreign, imported. There's no sense in getting myself sucked in that trend.

Two to three years later, they came back with their new stuff, their new flavor. And now, I clearly say that I am obsessed with them. Not the creepy type of obsessed though. Just a fan, someone who looks up to them. Someone who is inspired, someone who has already lost her hope of becoming someone like them. I became someone who dreams on being heard and seen by millions of people. A small person, a small voice. I definitely have a big dream.

One by one, they opened my eyes, cleared my ears, made my heart beat. Now I know their names, and definitely know a lot about them. Their music became my oxygen supply throughout the years that I tried to get to know them. I can clearly say now that I could never live without them anymore.

There was one of them who made me go "Whuuuuttt??!!", and there was one who's voice and actions are like message from the heavens above. One is a "Kababayan", one is a great singer and dancer, and one is like a songbird. Now I guess it's pretty obvious who they are.

June 11, 2009 when they dominated the Philippines. Everyone's excited to see them again. Their hits went up the charts. They're just the people you would always be wanting to see. They're the people who would inspire you and would keep you doing what you are  passionate about. The will keep you going until you reach your star.

Ashley Roberts, my number one favorite, danced like there's not tomorrow. She moved like there's a war she needs to win over. Her face gave a fierce look throughout the whole show. Although she showed her true personality while introducing herself, the hyped emotions and the fierceness remained until the last second. Her voice is like an angel's. I remember thinking of making her one of the leads of the group. She can definitely sing! She's pretty and sexy. Her long blonde hair just gives that extra sizzle in her dance. She's naughty, she's sugar, she's spice, and she's just everything nice. She can burn you and make you shiver at the same time. Just awesome! I love her so much.

Kimberly Wyatt, on the same level as Ashley for me, stayed flexible. She did her signature dance step a couple of times. She's very humble, very down to earth. She never gave a pokerface during the show. She's a great dancer and a good singer. Well, all of them are. She stayed as she always is on and off stage. She's just the best girl out there. Never blinded by money or fame. I look up to her the most. She inspires me in every second of my life.

Their tandem was what we're looking for. And they did give us the show we wanted to see. These 2 favorites of mine never left my sight last night. They're both awesome dancers and great artists. I just can't explain what I felt the night they dominated my world. I owe everything to them.

Now I have realeased the fan in me. Not really the type of personality I wanted to show but it's quite inevitable. Once you've found those people who makes you a better person, you have no choice but to be true to yourself. I don't want to lie either but being like this really annoys me. I'm annoyed at myself. Will I be like this forever? I don't want to be. But I don't have the courage to stand up and do what I love the most, performing music.

I'm so lame in many ways. I don't want to perform because I'm afraid, I'm shy. But when I see these people I look up to, I wonder, why can't I? Will I forever be just a fan? I will forever be a fan. But I really want to be somebody too. I want to share the same stage with the people I look up to. I want to be a Pussycat Doll, I want to perform. (Now, shallowness has already taken over) But really, I can dance and sing like that. I want to dance and sing like that. I wanna travel the world doing the thing I love the most. But I guess, I'm better off like this. Just keep looking up until my head falls on my back.

Oh.. I feel so sentimental. I'll just end my blog here. It's too much. It's becoming silly. =))