Friday: 16 th October, 2009 As I'm sitting here in the same old park, on the same green and black bench, I find my own little world standing still while the rest seems to move on restlessly. I'm sitting here, taking one deep breath after another. There are leaves falling off the tall trees, which happen to find their place on me. But I don't remove them, since I know that there's gonna be...

It's been exactly one week now, since I arrived here in Burghfield Common, England. Seven days that have been like the craziest roller coaster ride in my entire life. Seven days in that I've been crying, laughing and everything in between. Now I'm sitting here in a very beautiful, little park near the house I live in and I'm reminiscing. I'm finding myself thinking about simply everything....

Do you feel at home in your home? I can immediately answer this question with a simple: No, I don't. It's not that I wouldn't like the house I'm living in or the people around me that I call my family and friends. The problem is me - I feel as if I'm not complete here. As if my heart can't beat the way it's supposed to beat. As if there's a part missing, a part that I've been trying to...

Actually, I don't quite know what to expect from this blog. I just wanna write down some stuff about me, my personality and my life. I've posted some blogs before in which I let you you get a glimpse of who I am, but I never had enough courage or dedication to write a blog completely about myself. I don't know how many of you are going to read this, especially until the bitter end, or how many...

Sometimes I find myself sitting in my room with so many chaotic thoughts rushing through my mind. Then I frantically try to sort them, but most of the time it's all in vain. Cause the thoughts inside my head are too fast to grab, too heavy to carry and way too weird to understand. Sometimes people look at me as if they could see right through me into my soul. And sometimes people just see...

Actually, I don't quite know WHAT this is - I just wrote down what I had on my mind. It's supposed to show you a little bit more of myself, my personality, so I hope you like it :) 18 years old, she's seen a lot of things in her life people dying, people crying, fighting for their rights. She lost friends, tries to pretend nothing could ever break her her eyes ran dry, forgot how to...

People can pretend so ridiculously much. We can pretend to like someone who we obviously don't like at all. We can pretend to be okay with a particular situation without knowing how to deal with it. And we can pretend to pretend when we're actually just being ourselves. It must be kind of human nature, like a self-protection mechanism. We pretend in order to protect ourselves from the harm...

First of all, every single person out there in this world has insecurities. The problem is that many people can't distinguish between insecurities and fears. I think that fears envolve from insecurities. If you don't overcome and defeat your insecurities, they will develope to real fears or even paranoias. You can be insecure about a particular part of your appearance, some characteristics...

I think that in order to achieve something you need to have passion. You won't be able to achieve anything if you don't feel devoted to what you do or if you don't do it with your heart. Having passion also makes you feel better inside of you - you feel like you can give your heart and soul into something, without any restrictions or burdens. And this gives you a certain feeling of freedom...