my own path of ups and downs.

Written by Sandra on June 14, 2009

I think that the path that everyone of us is walking on was chosen properly.
I believe that the abilities and skills that a person has are enough to survive on this path.
And I feel like my very own purpose is to help others and just to be there for them. I've recognized that I'm happy whenever I can make someone else happy and paint a smile on someone's face.
So I believe that this is what I'm supposed to do.
Sometimes it's not that easy for me to just regardlessly give. But in the end it pays off, because my heart feels a certain feeling of satisfaction - no matter if I got something back or not.
I want to make a change in this world and I don't care how I'm gonna achieve this, the main thing is that it happens somehow!

I see injustice almost every day. And that's why I feel like I should do something against it since, for me, justice is one of the most important things in life.

For example, I always see the same beggar in my town, sitting in front of a supermarket (he's really needy and homeless). He always places the same sign with the inscription "I'm hungry - have no money to buy food" in front of him. So, one day I squatted down beside him and asked whether I should buy him something to eat. And he said I should rather give him the money so he could buy it himself, since he was scared of being venomed ... well, then I said that he could come with me and watch me buying the food so he would be sure it was okay. And that pretty much was the moment when he started yelling, demanding some money from me. This made me realize that some people are simply beyond help.

To me it's very sad to see someone who definitely could need some help, but wouldn't accept it. Some people are too proud to accept the help of others. Or maybe they just got used to the unhappiness they've been in for quite some time. But the truth is that no one has to stay in the misery in which they've been left behind. No one has to cave in to their affliction.
For some people the misery became their home and their comfort zone. They don't wanna step out of it again, because they're too afraid of failing in this new world. They're too afraid of changing their habits and lifestyles - even though they could have the opportunity to eventually leave their world of distress behind and create a world full of happiness.

Sometimes I find myself in a black whole of misery - when I think about certain things that happened in my past. Things that are still living on for me... every day.
Then I'd simply like to keep on lying here on the ground without moving at all. But sooner or later you have to move on. It might take a while until your legs find the strength to walk again.
But it doesn't matter how long it takes you to go there - the main thing is that you'll eventually arrive.




LiFE'S LiKE A ROLLER COASTER.
THERE ARE A LOT OF UPS AND DOWNS.
SEE, YOU'LL NEVER BE UP WiTHOUT BEiNG DOWN BEFORE  !!