Hey...

Written by TABOWILLAPL on November 3, 2010

I don't understand why people complains about every stupid thing that goes wrong, I maybe was like that, but not anymore. Now I'm sad because, my bestfriend, my cat, my sister, my baby, she was all that, and now she is gone ! :'(

It hurts so much, I feel like I'm a heart who stopped beating, and everybody is trying to make me move, not everyone, there is few people who don't try to make me move.

One more thing.. I have a friend and I feel like she doesn't understand me, so I'm kinda scared if she says something and I just snap and yell her some truths about her, and they aren't so nice to hear, and it may sound mean when I say that I like her, but sometimes I just hate her, she is just so "Me, myself and I.", she doesn't care how I feel, she just wants to talk about her, I don't care.. not now, I'm broken and she doesn't care, it seems like she doesn't even want to see me, she just acts like she wants to meet me, but no.. it is just words, empty words.

Someday we don't be friends anymore, and I'm not even sad about that.. I have my best human friend, Maria. I say that because I have/had animal friends, like the cat who died 25.10.2010, and about 4 dogs, and 3 of them are dead now :(

I miss all of them, but it feels like I miss Nöpö most, it was just last week, and she was always with me, always. I was about 4 years old when she came in to my life, and she lived 14-15 years, and I'm 18 now, so I feel like she was ALWAYS with me, and now she isn't here.

It just hurts, so bad.. that makes me broken. I can't even write about her, not yet.

I still wait and look for her when I'm home, and then it hits me when I remember that se ain't coming back, writing this, is hard to do, but I started and now I'll finish this.

bye.