scare to share

Written by anitaafriani on August 8, 2010

Sunday is never become my favourite day. It always ends with gloomy mood and boring things. I have problems on almost every aspect of my life. My assignment's deadline, my family crisis, my friends loyalty, and my boyfriend. I just need someone to share with, someone that I can release all my anger and thoughts then tell me gently what to do. Really understand my thoughts and at least give me solution to it. I really want someone who could be there for me. I want someone who I can count on to put my head on it's shoulder. I don't need anything. I really do, I just need someone to give me faith by holding my hands and tell me I can do this. I'm getting tired calming myself down, I'm getting tired telling myself I can get through with this, I'm getting tired cried on the pillow alone before I get to sleep. Are that means I'm lonely? Are that means I'm all alone? I just really want someone who can lift my mood up by entertaining me, try to surprise me even just a little bit just to see me smiling little bit. I just need someone that make me calm. right now I feel mad, I feel dissapointed, I feel sad, I feel like I always being left alone. Now for you, stop telling me what you want and try to hear and understand what I want. Try to fulfilled my need by being someone that I just wrote. Lots of sacrifice that I've done for you. why don't you give me a break by doing the same thing to me? you always sleeps earlier than me, rarely ask me how I feel today,do I always have to tell you how I feel and what I want? Do I really have to? I love you so much, but I just don't know how to make you realize about all of this.. You are too sensitive with yourself, not with me. Always this emotion you have that keep my mouth shut. But right now, I really think I should tell you because I don't want to caused anything to our relationship. I just need someone to share, not just someone who care.