Experiences in life and how everything happens for a reason...

Written by haggied on June 27, 2011

I want to share an experience I had last night with you all. For a while now I have felt down about lots of little things and unfortunately it has been building up and I’ve been struggling the past few months. Last night in particular I was starting to feel very vulnerable and as a result I was really starting to dislike myself. For example, since my wedding last September I have put on quite a bit of weight. After the wedding I felt I could ‘relax’ but unfortunately that has caused me to lose control of my weight (again!). For this reason I felt awful and judged by others.

As a devout Christian I turned to God last night in prayer. I also turned on one of the Christian channels on TV as I know they sometimes have late night live chats to help with situations and show guidance. I never usually watch these programmes and I have never contacted a TV show like this but last night I felt I needed someone to turn to so I emailed them and gave them a brief summary of how I was feeling. I didn’t expect much from that email as I know these programmes are often very busy so I decided to go on the internet and signed on to Beautiful Movements as this is also a good place to turn to if you are struggling.

When I signed on I found Kim had uploaded a new blog ‘Repetitive Roadblocks’ so clicked it. Not only was her new blog about crossroads and difficulties in life but she had used the picture of herself with Linsey and I. I felt at that moment God reach out to me and that he was answering me through Kim. It was his way of guiding me.

Quickly after this, the TV show I had emailed into was ending but just as it was about to end the presenter read out what I had written and spoke to me through the TV and told me that God loves me for me and self acceptance is through him. He also said that although we should try to look after our bodies for health reasons, we should not feel pressured by other people about how we look because God is only interested in our spirits and at the end of the day the body is left behind. I am made the way God intended me to be.

I truly feel I was answered last night and today I feel at peace. Not only am I more positive about me as a person but I also feel I now have to accept the situations I cannot change but try to change the stuff I can (e.g. my weight for health reasons). From today I am going to cut out junk food and I have already arranged swimming for Wednesday night.

Everything happens for a reason and we are constantly being guided and watched. I hope this gives everyone hope xx