Stress?

Written by itsivana on September 11, 2009

When I asked my religion teacher if there was a person existing with no stress, he quickly referred to dead people. In this life, no one is stress-free. Stress is one of the things that we humans are attached with. It's just our nature, and it's up to us, as an individual, to control it. What is stress? To me, stress is a blend of anger, frustration, and confusion. Mostly stimulated by impatience.

I'm a person who likes to do things quickly and I like being punctual. I follow rules, and I'm kind of strict with my time & work. I'm disciplined. I like to lead. Many tests say my future career is best suited in places where I manage others, like being in the executive position of a company, etc. I always finish my work on time.

Everyone praises me for this attitude.
Instead of feeling happy and good, I feel really bad.

I'm too... strict. I keep repeating to myself, I'm just a teenager. I need to enjoy my life. I need to take it easy. People say I need to take it easy. My mother says I'm stressy and moody. I always think of me as someone with no stress but impatience just lead me to anger. I'm such a sensitive person. Anything that pisses me off can get me really really stressed. It's like, when you touch a leaf, the whole flower starts dying.
I don't want to be that flower.

I want to be graphic, I want to be fun, I want to be 'normal' just like other teenagers out there. I'm almost 15, and I'm stressing out. It's like I'm putting myself in 'work' situation. It's like my mind is acting like a... a 23-year-old who works in an office from 8am to 5pm.

How does stress benefit me? It doesn't. I'm trying so hard to get rid of it, but I can't.
These are just a chain of words that needed to come out. I need help. And I need it badly. I've asked for it, but I didn't get much of it. Help me.