reading ur last messages.. the last from more than 3000 ... i´ve realized that u were diferent.. stressed, sad.. and i couldnt help u. we had spoken so many times about ur dance showcase that i thought u were only excited about that.. with ur work.. ur lil sisters.. and i feel so totally stupid.. when u wrote the msg in the forum.. i was really really mad , i couldnt believe that u were...

First , i Would like to apologize cause i will write this blog first in spanish , i have a lot of things in my head and i´ll make it faster , but u can read down the translation.   Supongo que todo empieza con el sentimiento de culpa que siento actualmente porque no puedo encontrarme a mi misma.   Como muchos de vosotros sabéis, (otros no, así que lo explicare ahora) estoy...

i´m sorry cause i cant stay strong always i´m sorry cause i tried to help u but i didn´t i´m sorry for not taking care of myself i´m sorry cause i love u i´m sorry cause i cant sleep if u are not there i´m sorry cause i need you i´m sorry cause i´m not enjoying ur achievements i´m sorry cause the world keep running and i can´t follow him i´m sorry cause i let u punish me...

yesterday i wrote a poem , seems sad but it´s like the desire to find the light in the end of the tunnel. each day , the girl of the brown eyes, feels really honored cause has all this marvelous family surrounding her, opening their hearts, in the bad moments but too in the good ones. i´m in a marathon and u are that guys that are in some points of the race giving food and water to the...

The human being is really amazing, the way we can connect, feel the feelings of another person, their sadness, happiness, kindness, their pain, joy.. only with a look,  a smile , a sigh...   last week i've met a person; althought u all know her name i won't name her cause it could also have been anyone of you, and i've learnt how amazing the human being is.   2 people with the same idea:...

as long as i breathe, my mind keep working as long as i dream , i´m not scared of nothing as long as i cry , let my feelings flow as long as i live .. as long as i grow   as long as i have my BM family, i´ll feel safe. i love u all guys

just love this song_ by anouk   I'm just thinkin' about the child in me, That I sometimes feel inside And I'm figuring out just what it is That makes me feel so small Is it you, that hurts me when I give myself Every day and every night Am I too blind to see that it doesn't work out Did I really ask too much of you baby Do you mean to tell me that's the way it is Do you mean to...

all those memories.. come back to my head everynight. should i cry ?  should i remember that i was bad ? that i did tons of despicable acts ? will this memories take me to the deepest self-destruction again? or.. it´s just my mind that want´s to remind me that i have changed, that i´m a better woman now, that i should think about that memories ,cause then i wont fall in the same...

my heart was frozen my eyes looked nowhere my soul was lost and then i met u my eyes looked to yours my soul felt ur company my heart beat again i try to be grateful everyday, with words, tears, smiles ... but i´ll never be able to show u what have u done for me each one of my smiles are for you each one of my progress are for you every time I breathe is for you   BM family, u...