what can a loner say....when there is no one to listen...or no one to communicate with....they say when you talk to your self...madness sets in.......but i have actually found it quite interesting talkin to myself.....i just wish...i would take more notice of me more often......not doin this is actually a lack of confidence....how does one gain confidence..

.i have always found animals  have given me confidence......i guess that is why i became a jockey.....horses would talk to me in away that humans never could....there was always a sence of ESP......i didn't get on with all the horses i rode...and i recall only one...that was dangerous....but aleast..we all got to know each other...and respected each other.....i worked with them.....i knew the job that had to be done......and i taught them what that was...even the babies....i learned a lot from them...and the ones i gave extra attention to.....trusted me and gave me love back......and also the rides of my life.....that i will never loose...when i close my eyes...i am there.....

humans.....as i am one.........can be hurtfull and degrading....with the words we use......our emotions.....carry us through life.....if we let our emotions out of our box...when they are hurt...they can........say the most horrible things......

humans have the power to change and think about what we say before we say them.......with...practice....we can learn to say only the nicest things...

as my mother quoted to me........

IF YOU HAVEN"T GOT ANYTHING NICE TO SAY....SAY NOTHING AT ALL...

BUTTON OR ZIP YOUR MOUTH.....SO NOTHING HARMFULL CAN COMEOUT

and learn to read what we write....... think about other peoples...feelings....

forgiveness is another issue.....i forgive myself constantly...and i forgive others.....

i find humans......have struggles with forgivenss......some can hold grudges

trust is also.....another.....issue......i must start to trust myself more....and believe...in what i do....

as a loner...i have always thought that everyone else knows more than me...and they are right i

am wrong....this maybe so sometimes.....

and from them i learn......i constanly ask questions...and listen intently.....as this is the best way

to learn.....but i must not let anyone put me down......anymore.....my beliefs are mine.....and they

make me happy....no one can take that from me....anymore.......this i pledge today.......

MY BELIEFS ARE MINE>>>>>>>

and being Lonely.....is something to be proud of.....because at least...it is you... you are being lonely with