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him..
Written by nadiawify on October 8, 2009
Its been 5 years since the last time I met him. On that day, I still dont have any feelings for him. He's just my best friend when i'm in elementry. but 2 years after that, when I looked at my elementry year book, I saw his photo, his sign for me, and his photo with me, I feel something inside my heart. I MISS HIM. and I dont know how to eliminate the sense of missed because he's far away from me. he's out of town. I remember when my 12 birthday, he sang a song for me (semua tentang kita - peterpan) and i realize that the lyrics is so deep :(.
4 years after the last time we met, I got his friendster account. I add him and he confirm me as friend. I'm very happy because it means that he still remeber me. I also got his phone number from him. but my friendship with him was not as close as before. and because not long after that friendster is no longer exist, and i think he change his number without let me know, i lost contact again with him. BUT I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM :(
about 6 month ago, i got his facebook account. i add him and he confirm me. and one day, he say hello to me from facebook chat, he still remember me. AND YES I'M VERY HAPPY ! i hope the situation keep like this so i have a chance to be his GF. but the reality doesn't match the expectation. he only say hello to me on that day. then never again. I told all the situation to my best friends and they asked me to just forget him because they think there so many guy out there that waiting for me. I dont have many hope since that because i think he only consider me as his friend. I tried to forget my feeling to him as my friend asked me and i think it works because i have BF since that, and i never thougt about him anymore.
1 month ago, when ied day, he text me 'happy ied' he also told me his new number. when that happen, my heart was pounding. and i hate it because it means that i still have feelings for him. i reply his text saying thank you, and i asked him how's things. but he didn't reply it. ARGH!!!!!
the most painful of my heart is when i saw his status on facebook. I still remember it.
22 Sept 2009 : I can't be with her
23 sept 2009 : I just want you to know that i LOVE you all the way
24 sept 2009 : I'm not gonna mad at you because i love you
I CRY WHEN I SEE THAT. i know it wasnt for me. i know he adore somebody else out there. i never have such a broken heart like this before and it pain a lot. now, i try harder to just forget him. but till this day, Thursday, 08 October 2009 I STILL EXPECTING HIM DAMN MUCH. and i hate it even i hate myself because i cant just forget him. :( ugh I PROMISE MY SELF I MUST FORGET HIM
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Nadia is a girl who is 17 that lives in Indonesia. She joined Dipdive on October 7, 2009. The last time she logged in was on December 10, 2009.
on Dec 10, 2009 from web
Hey i know where you are coming from with this. ive been in a similar situation. :(
Learning how to mend a broken heart can be really tough, and no matter how you plan to deal with it, it is not going to be easy. It seems that the more you try to get over it, the more it hurts. Healing a broken heart is going to take some time. No matter how much you think you have moved on, if you never handled the heartbreak properly, your emotions could be triggered at any time and by the smallest thing too.
Anything that reminds you of the relationship should be put away. This includes all those snapshots of you two. It even helps to stop going to places that remind you of them. You may heard of this breakup advice before, but it really does work.
Using your friends and family is not really recommended, especially if they know the two of you too well. This is because their advice will be influenced by how they feel about your friend.
i hope this makes sense.