Lonely

Written by number1pcdfan on March 24, 2011

Over time i always have good and bad days, but lately the bad days are out weighting the good days. I needed to talk to somebody, but seeing as there isnt anyone, i thought of Beautiful Movements..

 Im stressed with all the school work i need to be doing. Im always tired lately. I feel like i've lost a lot of friends over the last 2 months. My close friends aren't really that close to me. I just feel completely alone. I spent the whole day with one of my bestfriends who i havn't seen for three days. She complained all day about how some of our other friends have been ditching her and ignoring her when other people around. i supported her and spent the day with her.

However at lunch with all the stress and things happening at home lately, i wasnt very emotionly stable and somebody said something mean to me. Anyways it was just to much and i started crying. Normally i can get through these things fine. I was near some of my other close friends who striaght started hugging me and ask if i was ok, which my bestfriend did too. Before she left me while i was still crying and upset to talk to two of the people she had been complaining about to me for the day. Whiich only made me more upset. I then got ditched by my close friends after school and just wanted to go home and talk to my mum about it. However even though my mum knew i was upset she didnt come and talk to me. After i calmed down an hour later i came out and once again tried to cope with the world.

It gets really hard honestly. i dont really have a bestfriend or anyone that actually cares about me. A lot of people my age in the area are just plain rude, bitchy and mean people. People i meet online are always nicer but they always live on the other side of the world. I just wish i had one person who i felt really loved me....

the only thing that keeps me going is music... xox