Missing you…

Written by rulx-hashimaro on August 30, 2009

I seldom get the chance to really sit down and relfect on life..Given my schedule, working in the day, studying and training at night. Having a stroke patient father at home, my time is pretty occupied. But I was glad that I had a chance to sit down and enjoy my alone time one day, at the same time, reflecting on the moments that I had so far. The ups and downs I went through.

As I reminisced the nostalgic moments I had during my younger days, I realised that so many things happened in such a short time. Tears rolled down my cheeks unknowingly when I thought of my late grandmother. I really missed my late grandmother so much. Our bond was strong because she looked after me since I was a baby while my parents were busy working. She handed me over to my mum after I was 8, not because she did not love me anymore but she wanted me to be close to my mum. She was afraid that I might not acknowledge my mum when I grow older. People pass away eventually. I was very upset when she passed away, who would not? She was diagnosed with a cervical cancer. Doctors gave her about 3 months months to live. Her condition deteriorated and she was bedridden. Not long after, she gave up fighting and passed away. To add to the devastation, I was down with chicken pox when she passed on. I could not see her before she breathed her last breath. At that point of time, I felt that I had lost a confidant, a person whom I share every sorrow and happiness with, a person who brought me up and fed me with her own hands. Many unpleasant incidents happened to me lately. But I was very sure that she would watch over me and my family. I am certain she did.