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Not wanting to be urself
Written by whoiam on September 5, 2009
I apologize for being such a sad person.But I use Dipdive to release all the stress i have and to get advice from people(nice people).But anyway....Dosen't it seem like people strive to be somebody else.I mean like they wish they can be that person so they go to the extreme to be like them.
My past experiences I have been told that I wont suceed, I was ugly, I need a life,I dont like ur kind and etc.Which lead me to wish i was some who everybody would envy, like a pretty girl bc i was insecure about my looks my dark skin and my hair which everyone seemed to not like.For years i have been wish to be somebody else so people wouldnt be mean to me and so i wouldnt need to see my ugly face.It's hard to be nice and still have people who think ur not good looking,people who dont understand ur situation,people who whisper about u when u walk and not feeling comfortablle at school bc u feel like everybody is staring @ u.And u get paranoid and start to get panicy.I want to be an actress and I dont have the guts to call and acting coach so she can teach me some new stuff.My parents dont have the money for anything mor than $50 and hour and i want this so BADDD!!
It's just... my problem is I just cant go out with my hair back(no bangs) and feel pretty.I cant go to school and have people not freak me out bc they stare @ me and i dont have the guts to stand up to sum1.I dont know how to not feel jealous when people have what i want and to not take everything seriosly when peole deiss u. But my big question is How can u not care what people say? .That's the biggest thing.
My dream:
- To be an actress
- To walk the red carpet and be confident
- To be a respected actress
- To make millions of money
- To wish that the people who made fun of me to wish they hadnt
My life dream is to succeed and live the high life!!!!
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WillsBra4eva said on September 5, 2009:
I want to tell you that I am in the same boat as you are, my friend. I am always made fun of, have been from the day I came out of the womb. I have been called Bart Simpson because I have an overbite. I cry a lot because I feel like I cannot meet everyone's standards, and, that I may not be who they want me to be. But, you know what, my friend? It does not matter that you are not meeting everyone's standards, cause you are unique in your own way, and, that is all that matters. If people make fun of you, so what. Just ignore them and live the life you want to live. Not the life they feel is best for you. You are a smart person, and, you just need to only prove to yourself that, cause you are all that matters. I want you to know that I care about what you have to say. HONESTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!! You mean something to me, even though we have not met. I just want to read every one of your blogs. And, it does not matter that you are sad. We all get sad sometimes, and, this place is where we can come, and, write about how we are feeling. Have a wonderful day, my friend, and, if you want to talk, feel free to get ahold of me here, and, we can talk about all things. Does not matter what. As long as we get to know each other, and, learn to rely on each other for support.
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Asia is a girl that lives in United States. She joined Dipdive on August 24, 2009. The last time she logged in was on July 4, 2011.
it can take time not to care what ppl think about you but one day you'll wake up and just not care dont let them get you down their not worth it their just insecure, live your life and to hell with them